My Life is Confusing
My life is confusing,
a shamble of emotions,
waiting for a moment to jump up out of the depths of my mind
to perplex me even more.
My head is spinning,
A shamble of emotions
The nauseating pain sweeping through me like a tornado,
Ripping everything to shreds.
All the time I wonder "what if....?",
Those moments in time come and go,
puzzling me even more, making me think, making me question,
all the thoughts I have.
My body shuts down,
in those moments in time,
leaving me unaware to the things happening around me,
I am left in confusion over these little things.
But then I think,
No, that won't happen,
And I come back to my prison, no longer a free spirit,
But an energy, captured in time.
And so I leave you,
Still in confusion,
Wondering what could have been done and should have done,
And then I think to myself, no, that won't happen.
I am no longer a free spirit, open to the possibilities of what could be,
Entering bodies, like doors, not knowing what to expect,
Just thinking, "what if.